Whispered Dreams (Open Thread)

[Adish]

Adish laughed softly. Kinome was so cute when he was trying to fight the truth. The dragonis sighed softly and shrugged. What could it hurt? he asked himself If he wakes up mad at me.... Well, at least he'll be sleeping peacefully, he decided. He pulled the blankets back and laid down on the bed next to Kinome. Once the blankets were securely placed over them, Adish loosely wrapped an arm around the Human's waist and snuggled against him.

[kinome]

Kinome moved towards Adish in his sleep, practically plastering himself to the Dragonis. He threw on arm over Adish’s chest and his good leg over Adish’s legs carrying his earlier entanglement with the bedding to entanglement with Adish. He breathed an unconscious sigh of relief and his breath evened out, lines of worry and agitation smoothing away from his face.

[Adish]

Adish smiled softly and gently ran a hand through Kinome's hair. He wrapped both arms tightly around the Human and nuzzled the top of the boy's head. It was a rather comfortable position, and Adish couldn't help but to drift off to sleep himself.

[kinome]

Kinome slept right through the night, his usual terror and nighmares as well as wariness to fall into a deep sleep, thus leaving him vulnerable, not bothering him. He felt remarkably safe and protected to the extent that he didn't even have to fully become aware as to figure out why. He woke slowly, opening his eyes to languid comfort and happiness throughout his being. His eyes widened uponm realising that Adish was in his bed, pressed rather close to him. However, the feeling of safetly, warmth and comfort was too much of a temptation. Kinome didn't want to leave it yet. Even if it was only temporary. He didn't care if he was being selfish at that particular moment. He knew he should but couldn't bring himself to... and so he simply lay there, entangled with Adish's body and watched the faint sunrise, give colour to Adish's face.

[Adish]

Adish woke slowly; he was warm and comfortable and didn't feel like moving or waking just yet. When he did finally open his eyes, he looked down at Kinome. Adish could feel his face heat slightly, but he ignored it and smiled sleepily down at the Human. "Good morning, Kinome. Did you sleep well?" he asked, not mentioning anything about their current position.

[kinome]

Kinome had forgotten the compromising position they were in and was even uncontiously playing with a few strands of Adish's hair. "Hmm." He hummed softly, not quite paying attention nor realising that Adish was awake. Lost in his own thoughts and sleepy enjoyment.

[Adish]

Adish shrugged, taking that as an affirmative answer and smiled sleepily at how Kinome had started to play with his hair. It was adorable, Adish thought, to see the Human acting so kindly towards him; it was a nice change from all the yelling and crying and pain. He moved a hand from it position, encircling Kinome, and lightly brushed some stray, silver hairs away from the boy's face.

[kinome]

Kinome's eyes widened, his hand dropping from Adish's hair. "W...W...What are you doing?" Kinome exclaimed, a little flustered and still unaware of the carasses he himself had placed on Adish.

[Adish]

Adish blinked and gave Kinome a curiously innocent look. "Just what you were doing...," he explained in a mumble. He was confused as to why Kinome suddenly seemed so flustered when the Human had been the one that was touching him first.

[kinome]

"What I was doing?" Kinome responded looking terribly confused. Suddenly he flushed in realisation, withdrawing hastily from Adish, gaze dropped in embarrassment. "I'm sorry." He whispered. "Really, really sorry... I didn't mean to do..." He caught himself lest he start crying in distress.

[Kaden]

Adish smiled, laughing lightly. He shook his head and gently reached out to Kinome. "Why are you sorry? I don't mind, and you didn't seem to mind, either, until now."

[kinome]

"It's embarresing." Kinome muttered, still not looking up at Adish. "And I shouldn't be doing that. I can't afford to get involved... ever. I have my father to look after... I cause the ones I care most for to get hurt... and... and... I'm really not good at this." Kinome was picking at the bedsheets, giving himself an excuse not to look up.

[Adish]

Adish looked sadly at Kinome. "I'm not any good at this either. I have no idea what I'm doing! All I know is that I need to be with you... one way or another, but I have no idea how to do that. And, your father is a horrible man! He doesn't deserve your kindness after the way he treated you last night," Adish stated firmly. He gently pulled Kinome into a hug and nuzzled the boy's hair. "You won't hurt me... and I promised to make you happy, didn't I? How can I make you happy if we don't love eachother?" he asked softly.

[kinome]

Kinome withdrew in order to look Adish in the eyes, wanting the other to understand. "No... That’s not true. My father is ill. If he wasn't he wouldn't have done that. He has good days and bad days. You have seen his good day; you can't say that you didn't like him. That's what he was like before... It's my fault he's ill. I failed to protect my mother but worst of all I abandoned him when he needed it most. It wasn't my mother’s death that caused him to lose... to go... to become in... in..." Kinome struggled to force himself to say it, "insane. In the end it was the fact that he thought he had lost me too. I... I... I lost my mind. I screamed when he tried to touch me, tried to comfort me. I ended up in... in... an ... in… in… inst…institution for several months and when... when I got out it was too late for my father. He'd thought he'd lost us both and so he lost himself as well. Half the times he thinks I'm just an illusion created by his own mind to torment him. He hates that and so... he hates me and the things I remind him of. Other days... not often but worth it... he wakes up thinking it's before my mother died. Those are nice days except for when he frowns and wonders how I suddenly got so tall."

Kinome dropped his face into Adish’s chest so he could avoid looking at him, already humiliated by the confessions he had managed to utter. “It’s my fault. I really hurt him. He deserves my kindness more than anything. It’s not his fault. He has no control over what he believes just like you have no control over what you believe, even if it is fantasy it seems real to you and just in the same way, it seems real to him. It is also my punishment. If not for my mothers death then for failing him when he needed someone to hold onto. So… so, don’t waste your love on me… I’m not worth it and have no love left to give.” Kinome finally finished.

[Adish]

Adish listened silently, his face growing more and more sad with each word that Kinome uttered. Adish held the boy tightly. "The difference between myself and him, however, is that... What I say and believe is completely real. I don't want to sound mean or hateful towards your father; I understand what you've said. But... he needs some help. Help that you, nor anyone but himself, can give. You said you went to an institution? That's where he needs to be, then. Just because he can't grasp fully on reality... doesn't mean that he has to punish you for something that wasn't your fault. Your mother died because she wanted you to live. You, and he, need to realize that, okay?" he stated softly, gently petting the boy's hair as he spoke. "Your father is tearing your life apart. You aren't healthy: you never eat, you overwork yourself, your ankle is injured.... If you could live freely without having to care for a man that knew nothing of it, and cared nothing of it... you would be healthy and much happier."

Adish sighed softly, resting his head on top of Kinome's. "Kinome... You are my mate. I cannot love anyone else... It would be physically impossible. I... As much as it hurts me to hear you say that... I do not require your love to be able to give my love to you. I will care for you because I want to, not because of some obligation or anything of the sort," he explained softly.