Whispered Dreams (Open Thread)

[kinome]

"It's a blood disease. It causes me to have high levels of sugar in my blood because my body doesn't produce enough insulin." Kinome spoke softly, now wringing his hands nervously. "I have to take insulin in order to control it. I need to watch what I eat, excercise, and continually test my blood sugar level." Kinome pulled a face. "That's the part I hate. It involves needles and I'm not particularly partial to needles. Too many bad memories.

[Adish]

Adish smiled sadly at Kinome. "I'm sorry you have to be put through that, but I'll take care of you," he reassured, lightly patting the Human on the head. "I don't know for sure, but there must be something where I come from that cure such a thing...," he mumbled. Surely there was something; there had to be. Once he got Kinome to Parinenai, he would take him to a doctor and find out.

[kinome]

"It doesn't bother you? That there's so much wrong with me? " Kinome glanced up, eyes searching our Adish. "What would you want me for? What is there to love? I'm a guy. Who was once institutionalized for a mental disorder, who has a father that's not sane anymore, who let his mother die, that has no skills except for dancing, who is diabetic."

[Adish]

Adish smiled softly and ran his fingers throught Kinome's hair again before letting his hand rest on the small of his mate's back. "Who was the first person I met here that showed me any kindness; who has the most beautiful face and the softest hair I've ever seen or felt; who let me follow him around like some love-sick idiot even though I was constantly getting on your nerves; who was strong enough still try and live his life even after so many things have gone wrong," he listed. He kissed Kinome's forehead softly and rested his head on the Human's. "You're amazing and strong and beautiful and... and... so many things I wish I could be. There's nothing about you to be bothered by."

[kinome]

Kinome gave a wry smile. "I get the feeling I was the first person you net here." He retorted dryly. "And if I recall it was you who was showing all the kindness and not me. I was nothing but a burden, even then. You carried me home. I let you follow me because there is nothing I can do about it. You are free to come and go as you please. My hair is not soft and neither is my face pretty. I don’t deserve the peace death brings and so I live to take what punishment is given me. Adish... even if everything you said was true... I am tied here." Kinome finished in a defeated tone.

[Adish]

Adish pouted pathetically when Kinome turned his words around. He wasn't supposed to do that! He was supposed to take the compliments and be happy! Adish frowned and hugged Kinome tightly, nuzzling the boy's neck. "Fine then, I'll just have to wait until you're untied," he mumbled.

[kinome]

"You going to wait until I have my degree? Until my father dies? Assuming he dies before I do." Kinome blinked at Adish, rather confused at the concept. "What do you hope to gain... putting your life on hold like that? Nothing can come of it. Nothing except bitterness that I have ruined your life so."

[Adish]

Adish kissed Kinome's cheek and nuzzled the boy's hair. "I would be with you. That's the best thing there is! I've got nothing at home for me but my brother, but he'll get a mate or something eventually, and I don't have a job yet or any real school to go to. That leaves just me, right? That means you get all of me," he said happily. He wanted to give all of himself to Kinome, to his mate, and he planned on living his whole life for him.

[kinome]

"I can't ask you to do that." Kinome whispered. "I can't ask you to remain here with me when even I feel bitter trapped and torn here. How am I to expect you to feel any different, to leave your family and home. No matter how you look at it it would be a downgrade."

[Adish]

Adish shook his head furiously. "Nuh-uh! Besides, with me here, how could you be sad? And it's not even possible for me to leave you, or to feel bogged down by any of this... And there is no way in hell I'd miss my family," he stated, darkly muttered that last part. He cuddled Kinome, pulling the boy close. "Just tell me the truth. Don't lie to make me feel better or try to break it to me easy or something like that... But... Do you or don't you love me? If you do then it's nothing to worry about. We'll both work hard and accomplish whatever we need to, and if you don't..... if you don't then I'll do whatever makes you happy because I love you.... and...," he trailed off. He couldn't image what would happen if Kinome didn't love him...

[kinome]

Kinome shifted awkwardly, uncomfortable at being put on the spot like that. He really and honestly didn't know what he felt. All he knew for certain was that he was confused. That the life he had gotten used to over the years had suddenly been turned upside down. He nervously cleared his throat. "I don't know." He muttered, turning red in shame and embarrassment and feeling really bad. "You're a guy..."

[Adish]

Adish frowned sadly. "Oh... I... I see. Then.... Why does it matter that I'm a guy, though? I mean... Why would you want to be with a girl? They're loud and... they have boobs....," he muttered.

[kinome]

“It’s not normal to like a guy.” Kinome whispered. “Liking girls is normal.” Kinome turned bright red. “As I said…” He roughly cleared his throat. “Guys don’t have babies. Girls do. Also… in order to have a baby… You need a girl and a guy to… to… to…” Kinome stopped, extremely red and unable to continue with that train of discussion. He swallowed before continuing. “If guys liked guys and girls liked girls, humanity would die out.” Kinome chewed on his lip, shifting uncomfortably under Adish’s gaze.

[Adish]

Adish smiled softly. "Not so. Where I come from, everything is just as you said. I know you thinks it's crazy, but it is true. Both my father and my mother are men. Don't ask me how it works, exactly; I'm not entirely sure. Though Zelat, the computer on my ship, could tell you. He can tell you just about anything," he stated. He lightly touched Kinome's cheek.

[kinome]

Kinome stared at Adish wide eyed before reaching out to lightly poke him in the forehead. "You are crazy." He whispered. "Absolutely crazy. Next thing you are going to be telling me is that I will fall pregnant and carry your baby. Male bodies are just not built that way. You were 'adopted'." Kinome emphasized the word. "You had to have been." Kinome pouted stubbornly, wishing to close the matter.