Whispered Dreams (Open Thread)

[kinome]

Kinome shook his head in negation. "Not really." He mumbled. "It takes a while... so..." Kinome shifted, suddenly feeling awkward. "When are you leaving?" He whispered.

[Adish]

Adish sighed softly, pulling Kinome against him. "Whenever you want me to, love," he said lightly.

[kinome]

Kinome chewed on his lip not knowing what to say when he realised he never wanted Adish to leave. However he was still at the dilemma of being unable to ask the boy to stay, to get mixed up in the life that had left Kinome nothing but bitter and broken. Suddenly he choked back a distressed sob, hating the dilema given him and hating the choice he had to make.

[Adish]

Adish sighed softly, smiling gently at Kinome as he wrapped the boy in a lightly hug. "I'll stay until you tell me to leave... and mean it," he said softly, rubbing the other's back. "I know... I know you don't want me to stay and be brought down by you... or maybe that's just what you think, but I've had it pretty hard myself, you know. Nothing will ever make me hate you, and nothing will ever make me not want to be with you, okay?" he asked, kissing the Human's hair.

[kinome]

"I'm tired." Kinome whispered as he continued to sob. "I'm just so tired of it all. You cannot stay and I cannot go. There is no freedom... just chains... chains, chains and more chains. Nothing I do can ever set me free of all the responsibility... all the consequences of one day."

[Adish]

Adish sighed, hugging Kinome tighter. "Let me free you. Let me be your chance to who you really are, instead of a boy trapped by circumstances. None of this was your fault; none of it is your fault," he stated softly, gently running his fingers through the boy's hair. "You don't deserve to not be happy.... if that makes sense..."

[kinome]

"What can you possibly DOOOOO?!" Kinome sobbed softly. "What is there that you CAN do... Are we not all trapped by circumstance? Influenced by the decisions we mistakingly make? Is this not punishment for my sins? For my weakness in not being able to protect her?"

[Adish]

Adish shook his head gently, tightening his grip on Kinome. "Of course it isn't. I know life sucks sometimes, but I believe things happen for a reason. I mean, what were the chances of me coming here, of all places, just to meet you? I know that we were meant to be together, that's why I came here, though I wasn't aware of it at first. You'll probably never know the reason something happened until later in life; you'll find out in the end. We don't know why she died, but I know it wasn't your fault. A little boy can't be expected to fight someone off on their own. That's silly," he explained softly, cuddling against the Human. After a moment of silence, he sighed softly. "I say that I'm glad I'm trapped by circustance, if it means that I get to be with you."

[kinome]

"I want to be free." Kinome whispered, tears finally cried out. "I want to be able to play, to relax. To not worry about where the money for food, rent, water and lights is going to come from. To not have to live off of my dance instructors charity. He refused to let me quit dancing. He won’t accept any payment for training. Not really. I'm scared... all the time. I never know when my father is going to come home drunk, mad with grief and hit me. It hurts when he thinks I am some stranger breaking into the house to do him and his family grief... When he calls the police on me... The sad knowing looks I get from the police officers. And then there are the day’s he thinks my mother is still alive, where I have to lie to him, think of excuses as to why she is not here think of something to say to his questions about how I seem to have grown so fast. But... no matter how much I wish all this were different... better.... there is no escape from reality and sometimes accepting that is all we can do. I know you want to stay here but you can’t... your family needs you... Eade," Kinome remembered the name Adish had used. "needs you. What is he going to do now that you are not there to protect him? At least you can do something for him..."

[Adish]

Adish frowned and shook his head solemnly. "I can't go back just yet. You see, Some guys got to him awhile back, and while I was protecting him... when I brought him home, Momma thought I'd done it.... again... When he gets like that... he gets violent sometimes and I end up getting hurt, too. That's why I left in the first place. I don't want Eade to get hurt, but I don't want to die or get paralyzed or something," he explained. He lifted Kinome's head gently, wiping the tears from the Human's face and smiling softly at him. "My family doesn't need me- just Eade and you. 'Course, I suppose that's all the family I need," he said softly.

[kinome]

"Your father hits you?" Kinome whispered, horrified. He shook his head. "That's terrible. Your mother as well? How come... " A few tears escaped, these for Adish and not for himself. Kinome leant forward hugging Adish close. "I'm so sorry." He whispered, hurting for the fact that Adish had had to experience that... live through something like that when he apparently had done nothing to deserve such. He knew in his heart Adish di9dn;t deserve such but could not explain if asked. "I'm so sorry." He suddenly felt bad for complaining about his own worries.

[Adish]

Adish smiled sadly at Kinome, lightly hugging the boy in return. "It's alright. I'm just a bad seed, anyway," he admitted quietly, "Don't worry about me." He kissed Kinome's head, nuzzling the boy's hair. "My parents just don't understand. They don't see how anyone could hate their perfect little Eade- why anyone would want to hurt him... besides me, that is. They think that I'm jealous of all the attention he gets, but I'm not. I'm glad they love him more than they love me. He needs it."

[kinome]

Kinome shook his head. "No you're not." He stated softly. "It hurts. No matter how deserved you may think pain is... pain is still pain." Kinome's voice hitched. "Believe me I know. I don't believe you are bad. Not with how yo ucan bear to be in a murderers presence and still show care. You're not bad and just because you are not believed about protecting your brother, it doesn't make you bad and never will."

[Adish]

Adish looked sad, turning his eyes away in shame. "Kinome... I... I killed three men... I did it on purpose. You were present when your mother was killed; you were an innocent bystander... I... I did it.... I meant to.... had to. Kinome... I am a murderer... you are not," he said softly, not meeting the other's eyes.

[kinome]

Kinome chewed his lip, his eyes going wide at the revelation. He didn't know what to say or what to do and if he cared to admit as much he was just a tad bit terrified. He had watched a murder. Watched his mother die, and here was someone who killed. He couldn't condone it... not for any reason. Killing was wrong... Yet he liked Adish, loved him. Kinome paled even further at the realisation a sob escaping him. What was he supposed to do now? He was broken... Adish was a murderer. His father was insane... Fine mess his life was, wasn't it.

"Sorry." He whispered feeling guilty for his reaction, both the fear and the tears. He could see that Adish was not proud of what he had done but Kinome was struggling to get the memory of his mothers blood soaked body out of his mind. Trying to forget and see Adish's situation without it being coloured by his own life experiences but he jut couldn't do it.