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Post by clementine on Aug 25, 2009 13:16:44 GMT -5
"No, no...it's..." Cade couldn't say it. He just couldn't say it. He didn't even know Rave and yet he already loved the boy deeply. The kid was so young. How could they be mates? What would people say about this?
The Zercan's eyes brimmed with tears as he buried his face against Rave's neck. Why could he just let things be simple.
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Post by GothicKitsune666 on Aug 25, 2009 13:22:12 GMT -5
Rave's eyes widened. "W-what's wrong?" he asked timidly. Shouldn't this be a happy moment? And not a moment of sadness? As it seemed to be for Cade. What was going on here? Surely he didn't think this as a mistake. Right?
Trying to brush away the negative thoughts popping up in his head, he wrapped his arms around Cade's upper body. Burying his own head into Cade's neck and kissing it slightly, in hopes to calm his distressed mate.
"Talk to me, Cade," he begged. "You're scaring me. What's the matter?"
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Post by clementine on Aug 25, 2009 13:35:21 GMT -5
Cade didn't want to talk about it. He didn't want to hurt Rave's feelings with what he was thinking. "It's nothing. Don't worry." He whispered, tasting salt as he kept his face from Rave's. "I'm just...tired. That's all."
He didn't meant to sound like a world-weary old man, but he couldn't help it. To many thoughts were vying for his attention and the older male was at a loss as to what he should do. So, he just fielded those thoughts and pretended it was okay.
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Post by GothicKitsune666 on Aug 25, 2009 13:40:18 GMT -5
Rave looked down. He knew that what Cade said was a lie. "I feel like an idiot," he whispered as a tear rolled down his cheek.
It was obvious Cade was regretting this. That he was no good as a mate, that his own mate didn't even want him. God, he was so pathetic.
"I-I'm going to go t-to the bathroom quickly," he whispered as he moved away from Cade's arms. Walking into the bathroom, he shut and locked the door before sliding to the floor and just broke down.
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Post by clementine on Aug 25, 2009 13:51:45 GMT -5
"No. Rave, wait." Cade beseeched as the boy ran to the bathroom. The Zercan tripped on the sheets in his haste to reach the boy. He tried the door even though he knew it was locked, feeling horrible.
"Rave, Rave! Please open the door." He heard the boy sobbing and it nearly tore out his heart. "I'm sorry. It was just so fast...and you're so young!" Cade smacked the door, falling against it to the floor. "I'm just confused. I'm sorry."
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Post by GothicKitsune666 on Aug 25, 2009 13:57:25 GMT -5
"I'm no good," he whispered. "I'm simply no good."
Hearing what Cade had to say, he gave a hollow laugh. "Age should have nothing to do with it. Look at your Shodan. His mate is my age and he is about yours isn't he? Besides, your my mate! Who cares about age?" he hissed out. Standing up, he turned and opened the door.
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Post by clementine on Aug 25, 2009 14:02:58 GMT -5
Cade flushed, looking up at Rave. "It's not the same." He protested. "The Shodan is still very much young...but, I'm different...I'm..." He looked away, not wanting to bring up that part of his life again.
"I want to take care of you more than have sex with you. Do you understand?" Cade wasn't sure how he could explain it. Rave reminded him too forcefully of his young cousin. He knew what he was saying was wrong, but the words just popped out.
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Post by GothicKitsune666 on Aug 25, 2009 14:07:56 GMT -5
That slapped Rave across the cheek. Hard. Without another word, he turned and started to walk towards the front door. He would rather put up with his brother's screams then be in the room with his mate who does not want him what so ever.
Getting to the front door, he took a deep breath and wiped away the falling tears before taking hold of the doorknob. "I hope you're happy," he whispered as he opened the door. Prepared to walk out and not return. No matter how much it hurt him not to.
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Post by clementine on Aug 25, 2009 14:17:20 GMT -5
Cade was momentarily stunned as he grasped his injured cheek. He couldn't get mad. Not really. He was the one who couldn't explain himself after all.
"Wait, Rave! Please." The Zercan reached for his mate, but drew his hand back even as it killed him. Already he could feel himself dying slowly. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean..." But he had. Cade couldn't lie to the teen.
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Post by GothicKitsune666 on Aug 25, 2009 14:21:49 GMT -5
"You know," Rave said before walking out the door. "I was happy, when I found you. My mate. You were everything I wanted in a mate and then some. I didn't care about your age either. In fact, I always had a feeling that my mate was going to be older than me."
He looked down at the ground. His back still turned to Cade. "But then after we mated... I guess I was a fool. To think someone like you would want a boy like me. Who had no sexual experience before hand. To think, that I was waiting just to be tossed aside. Again. And, just to add salt to my wounds, I have to be in love with you also."
With that, he walked out the door and slammed it shut.
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Post by clementine on Aug 25, 2009 17:54:35 GMT -5
Cade looked stricken as the door shut with loud finality. Rave was wrong. He wasn't the one who was lacking, but instead, Cade himself was the one who didn't deserve the Sensaphorian. The doctor had screwed things up yet again because of his lack of clarity and articulation.
What was there to in this case? Well, nothing in Cade's mind. He couldn't go after the teen...that would probably upset the boy more. It was then he realized one thing. Babies. Or in this case, baby.
The Zercan was on his feet, stufingf himself back into his jeans as he raced out the door to find Rave. He couldn't just leave the boy...whatever he felt.
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Post by GothicKitsune666 on Aug 25, 2009 21:57:10 GMT -5
Rave was walking down the street. The lamps were on, lighting his way. Tears running down his cheeks as he held himself. Fuck you Cade, he thought to himself bitterly. I don't need you. I don't need you...
As the mantra continued to play in his head, he suddenly broke down. Falling to his knees, tears flooded from his eyes. "Who am I joking?" he cried out. "I do need you."
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Post by clementine on Aug 25, 2009 22:10:42 GMT -5
Cade looked around wildly, trying to search for his little mate. For once in his life his height was an advantage. He spotted Rave just up the street though he nearly cried out when the boy fell.
"Rave." The Zercan cried. "Rave!" He rushed to the boy, scooping him easily up in his arms. "Are you alright." It was a stupid question but he had to ask it as he nuzzled against his unwanted-wanted mate.
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Post by GothicKitsune666 on Aug 25, 2009 22:15:01 GMT -5
Hearing Cade, he looked up just as he was pulled against him. This just caused him to cry harder. "Why are you here?" he asked brokenly. "You don't want me, so why are you here?"
He tried to pull away but he was out of energy that he just collapsed. Seeing darkness at the corners of his vision, he fell into unconsciousness.
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Post by clementine on Aug 25, 2009 22:19:27 GMT -5
Before Cade could answer, he felt Rave lay lifeless in his arms. He shook the boy a moment, quickly checking his pulse. Seemed he was only tired. Sighing in utter relief, he turned around and trudged dejectedly back to the hotel room.
Once there, he laid Rave gently on the bed, wetting a cloth to cool the boy's overheated system. He would have taken his mate home...but he had no idea where Rave lived. The fact was, he knew nothing about Rave and he hated that.
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