Butterfly (Open Thread)

[annon]

"Fuck you." Annon snarled at Rana wincing at the force Rana was using to drag him back to the bar... and dragging it was, because Annon was more than pissed off at Rana for having the audacity to claim that he belonged to the damn crazy alien freak of a cat and at the same time go and flirt with someone else. Annon glared heatedly at Rana, not seeing Fitz and Rial approach and certainly not hearing them. "Go fuck your little whore." Annon spat, slowly and carefully, the ariticulation of his words a little distorted almost making it appear that he had a speach defect. It wasn't a distortion of drunkeness but simply one of being unable to hear oneself speak properly. "I won't be your whore. Not now, not ever." Annon's eyes practically glowed in anger and animosity. He'd lost control of himself a long time ago... alcohol tended to do that to him... tended to make him more bold than he usually would be and certainly more forthcoming with what he really felt instead of the usual polite formal facade of a diplomats son.

Spotting the little wave Fitz directed at him from the corner of his eye, Annon turned away from Rana to redirect his glare at Fitz. Standing up, he ignored Fitz, Rial and Rana. Pushing past them and anyone else who got in his way, Annon headed for the exit. His plan had suddenly lost its appeal and all that was left was a hollow emptiness surrounded by pain and an odd sense of regret. Annon finally stumbled out, staring at the unfamiliar environment around him with dull, lifeless eyes. He ran a weary hand through his hair calling himself all manners of a fool. How the hell had he managed to get so attached to a bloody stranger who had kidnapped him and turned his entire life upside down. Defeated, Annon fell against the wall, closing his eyes and his mind to everything around him. Nothing mattered anymore. They could kill him, mug him and right of that moment he wouldn't give a damn. Why? Because right now, at this moment he knew he could never go back to who he had always been... never go back to pretending that his own wants were inconsequential to him and everyone else becuase it was his own wants that had him feeling so broken in the first place.

[Rana Mau Abyssin]

Fitz shrunk into Rial's arms. Rana sighed, chasing after Annon after a short apology. He folloed Annon out into the alley, watching him a bit. He purred soothingly, crouching down in front of his chosen mate. He reached out to stroke Annon's face gently. He made sure that Annon was looking at him and articulated well. "Fitz is Rial's mate, mau" he said softly. "A friend, mau. You do not have to be jealous, mau, and I don't want you as a whore, mau. You will be my mate, mau. My love, my jewel, my life, my mau." His hands were gentle against Annon's face as he pulled him close for a kiss. "I love you, mau. I do not want to hurt you, mau. Come, let's go home, mau." He tried to pull him close, just wanting to hold him.

[annon]

Annon shoved against him, still hurt for some unexplainable reason. "Who says I wa...n...t to be yours?!" Annon screamed, tears pouring down his face, struggling with his words. "Why doesss no one eva assk me what I want?! Why does my opin... opinion nev...er... cou...nt?! Why doesss thiss hu...rt?" Annon's voice suddenly lost its fire as he slid down the wall burying his face in his hands, all of a sudden horribly ashamed of himself and his outburst.

[Rana Mau Abyssin]

Rana picked him up. "Do you want to go home, mau?" he asked him guietly as soon as he was back in Annon's line of sight. "Here, put your arms like this, mau. Hold on." He looked a bit upset. "You don't want me, mau?" he finally asked, his eyes full of pain. "Your opinion counts, mau. I just though... I was sure that you felt the same, mau. We're mates, mau..."

[annon]

Annon gazed blindly at Rana, not concentrating enough to make out anything he said. Damn, he really should not have drank that alcohol, he was starting to feel ill. He felt tears pour down his face and could do nothing to stop them. Annon, as has already been stated, was a terrible drunk. "I hate you." He muttered incoherently, resting his head against Rana's and clumsily looping his arms around Rana's neck.

"I hate that you make me want... want things... want you... why is this happening? I was such an obedient son... mostly... I was supposed to get married to someone I dont love, its the best political move after all" Annon was now rambling. "Why did you have to come and ruin it? Now my father is going to hate me. I cant marry her. I cant marry her when all I can think about is you. Damn you. Im not gay. Im not gay an you don know me. How can you know me when I don even know myself." Annon drifted off still rambling odd things. "Its not fair. Im not supposed to want."

[Rana Mau Abyssin]

Rana just smiled gently. He knew what the problem was now, he could deal with it. He carried him home, ignoring the very evil looks he could feel coming from his mothers. They could go harass someone else. Rana was only going to pay attention to his mate, now. He'd make him see that it wasn't bad to want and to be a bit selfish. He'd spoil him.

He put Annon down on the bed, gently smoothing his hair out of his face. He then went to go change, bringing Annon a change of clothes and leaving to give the boy his privacy. He Came back a while later and crawled into bed with Annon, curling around him. He gave him a little nip. "Tomorrow, we talk, mau," he promised.

[annon]

Annon woke slowly blinked confused eyes while his mind fought with the remaining alcohol induced fog. Damn, what had he been doing drinking last night? He'd had the strangest dream. Maybe he was over worked and stressed. Maybe he should take things easy. Annon streached out, wincing when the movement made him feel queezy. A little voice in the back of his mind was telling him something was seriously not right. There was an unfamiliar warmth plastered to his side. Shit! Had he brought some randm woman home? His father was not going to be pleased, and niether, he suspected, would be his fiance. Annon glanced to the side, leaping out of bed when he realized that regretably, his dream had not been a dream. The movement was a mistake and sent Annon for the nearset bathroom seekking to empty his stomache.

[Rana Mau Abyssin]

Rana waited until Annon emerged from the bathroom again. He stretched on the bed, going to get dressed. When Annon emerged, he smiled gently. He was still only half dressed, lacking a shirt. "Are you ok, mau? Can we talk, mau?" he asked, making sure to articulate well. "We have to talk, mau."

[annon]

Annon gazed at Rana, getting the gist of what he said if not everything he actually said. He dropped his gaze, looking rather whiped and reprimanded. It also served to divert his gaze from Rana's naked chest which, gathered from the reaction he could feel, might be a good thing.He nodded silently.

[Rana Mau Abyssin]

Rana gatehred him up in his arms, bringing him to sit on the bed. He made a little mewling sound, then lifted Annon's chin up with a finger. "I love you, mau." he said. "You are my mate, mau. For my people, mau, being mates is sacred and very accepted, mau. When you find your mate, there is no doubt in either's mind, mau. That is why I didn't ask, mau. Forgive me, mau?" He stroked Annon's face. "And we can fix your hearing, mau, if you want, mau."

[annon]

Annon narrowed his eyes. Hurt coursing through him with Rana’s last statement. He knew it. No one would accept him as he was… flawed… Everyone wanted him to change. He shoved Rana away from himself, getting up and backing away. “I knew it.” He hissed as well as he was able to. “No one wants flawed goods.”

[Rana Mau Abyssin]

"It's only if you want, mau," he said. "I don't mind, mau. You aren't flawed goods, mau, you're my perfect mate. I just thought that it would make you happy, mau. But if you don't want it, we can leave it, mau." He purred. "I don't think you're flawed, mau, I think you're the best thing that ever happened to me, mau."

[annon]

Annon watched Rana warily, uncertain of what to do next. The reason to yell and scream at Rana had just been taken from him. Annon shifted nervously where he was standing, silently watching Rana. He felt so out of place, so vulnerable and more than a little lost. He swallowed nervously, eyes darting around the entire environment lest there was something he was missing.

[Rana Mau Abyssin]

Rana purred soothingly. "It's ok, mau. You don't have to be worried, mau. I just want to have the opportunity to love you, mau."

[annon]

Annon chewed on his lip, staring at Rana in confusion. "Why?" He finally managed to ask. "I'm deaf, half blind," Annon adjusted his glasses, "boring, have no personality and a rebel... See!" Annon lifted his shirt, turned around and showed Rana the tatoo of the butterfly low on his back.