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Post by Raimi on Oct 11, 2006 20:22:13 GMT -5
He smiled happily and blinked down at Tatsa when he was done. "Thank you..." He placed the child up on his shoulder and patted his back firmly. "Xemas....thanks so much for everything...you don't know how much it means to me. I mean...you should be out at clubs, with friends, partying or something. But instead...Instead you're here with me. Taking care of me and Tatsa...You work all the time, just to...to suprise me with the baby's room. To buy me things and make me comfortable..." He should stop talking, lest the tears started, but he couldn't get his mouth to stay shut. "You...you never really had to....you could have just left me but..but you didn't..." his voice went up an octive and his eyes got glossy.
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Post by Zadkiel on Oct 11, 2006 20:26:08 GMT -5
"Ssitris..." Xemas looked over at him, gently cupping hsi cheek and turnign his face to him. "All of it was done for you. Do you know why? Because...because I realized, back in the hospital way back when, that you...you're amazing. No matter how clumsy or moody," he smiled to let him know he was teasing.
"I love you, and I love Tatsa, and I want....I want us to be a real family. I want you to be my mate, and i'll wait until you're ready.." He leaned and softly kissed his lips, stroking under hs eyes.
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Post by Raimi on Oct 11, 2006 20:27:44 GMT -5
His heart skipped a beat. His...his mate....? Did....Did Xemas just...just.... His eyes closed and he fell dead faint against the headboard, at least still holding the now dozing Tatsa.
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Post by Zadkiel on Oct 11, 2006 20:31:01 GMT -5
"Ssitris?" Xemas stared at him a second before leanign over him, moving to tug the man into his lap. He held him, feeling horrible. Had he said something wrong?? Or maybe..! The water! Maybe he should've given Ssitris the water like M'lon said. Oh Jesk....
"Ssitris, what's wrong...." He rubbed his face, cupping the back of the baby's head.
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Post by Raimi on Oct 11, 2006 20:32:42 GMT -5
Ssitris didn't respond. He was in complete and utter shock, even in his state of uncounciousness. Xemas had...had just...just asked him to...to...they..eh...m...m...ma...att...t.t..e...Mate.. To be his...mate....
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Post by Zadkiel on Oct 11, 2006 20:34:51 GMT -5
Jeskara....usually when someone passed out, they woke up a few minutes later, right??? Xemas watched the clock, fingers itching to pick up his watch and go call M'lon again. Only.....only the man would probably rip him to shreds.
"Shit," he murmured and curled over the man, kissing his cheeks softly.
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Post by Raimi on Oct 11, 2006 20:44:55 GMT -5
---Two Months later---
During the next couple of months after the birth of Tatsa, the subject of mating never came up again. Ssitris never brought it up mostly because he was confused over it, wondering if he had somehow guilted Xemas into it.
Over and over again he spoke with Celrie, Eravan, Ryle...even M'lon and Yeest about it. Everyone, save for the given suspects, all said the same thing; 'Do whatever you want.' along with the proper sympathetic sayings such as 'You didn't do anything wrong...I'm sure he's happy.' None of it concoled him though.
And now, he sat at home in the dark of the apartment. He had let Celrie babysit Tatsa for the night, as much as he didn't want to let his baby out of his sight, this had to be done. He had left a message on Xemas' watch after lunch that when he got home, they needed to talk.
Since he pressed that send button, he'd been worrying all afternoon and evening. Now, with the apartment pitch black, he laid on the bed, staring at the ceiling. Waiting...
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Post by Zadkiel on Oct 11, 2006 20:49:51 GMT -5
Xemas walked down the street, jacket slung over his arm. He kept looking at his watch, checking the time. He was ahead of himself....Ever since Ssitris had sent the cryptic message around lunch, he'd been working faster. As in, he'd gotten everything done so fast, he was actually heading home early.
Celrie had called him too, to announce that he and Eravan had finally mated-yay, insert bored, i-already-knew-that face- and might be expecting. Xemas checked the mail on the way into the apartment before he closed the door behind him, brow furrowing at the darkness.
"Ssitris!" He called setting down his jacket and keys, toeing off his shoes. "I'm home, where're you at??"
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Post by Raimi on Oct 11, 2006 20:52:46 GMT -5
His stomache flipped. He was home...he was home...he had to do this. He had to....Everything pointed to it. His feelings, his friends and family...
He gulped and sighed, "In the bedroom..." he called almost too quietly. He bent his legs a bit, and placed one hand behind his head, the other on his bare, scarred stomache. This was it... Either it was shot down or accepted. No inbetween.
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Post by Zadkiel on Oct 11, 2006 21:01:49 GMT -5
Xemas made his way down the dark hallway, hands on the walls to hold himself up and so he didn't bang into anything. Why was it so dark?? And where was Tatsa?
The incubus opened the bedroom door and slipped in. "What're you doing in the dark baby," he asked, making his way over. He hadn't seen Ssitris yet, but somethign on the air stirred his senses-some sort of energy and the incubus moved forward, reachign for a light.
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Post by Raimi on Oct 11, 2006 21:03:23 GMT -5
"Xemas....don't turn on the light." He ordered. "Just....just come to bed...please... it's easier for me to .... it's just easier this way."
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Post by Zadkiel on Oct 11, 2006 21:05:09 GMT -5
"Um...alright," the incubus dropped his hand, walking to the bed and crawling in. He slid over to the man and stopped short. Was Ssitris..he..he was...
"Ssitris," he asked, hardly daring to hope. After all, they hadn't talked about it...
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Post by Raimi on Oct 11, 2006 21:06:50 GMT -5
He reached over, having changed his eyes so he could see and took his hand, bringing it up to his mouth and kissing the finger tips. "Xemas..." he breathed. "I....I'm sorry...."
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Post by Zadkiel on Oct 11, 2006 21:08:34 GMT -5
"Sorry?" He whispered, breath hitching at the soft lips against his fingers. "Sorry for what? You did nothing wrong...." His brow furrowed in confusion.
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Post by Raimi on Oct 11, 2006 21:14:17 GMT -5
"I...I'm sorry that I can't..." He took a deep breath and sat up, letting go of his hand. "I just can't be what you want....You should have a life....you're young and...and you should have someone your age, who can have fun with you...not tie you down like this...with a baby that's not even yours..."
When Xemas went to speak; he cut him off, "Please...don't say anything...it's just...I'm...I'm really really sorry....I messed up your life.... These past two months...I've been thinking, every minute about what you said the morning after Tatsa was born. I mean, every morning, when I wake up you're there, and you go right to him as if you already know he's about to wake up too. You work...and buy us food and clothes...and you buy Tatsa toys and diapers...this apartment... I'm just...so sorry I ruined it all for you.
"B---but..." he sighed. "I...I mean...what I want to know is....do you really love me, or is it because you feel guilty....?"
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